I’ve been struggling with depression and Post traumatic stress disorder for more time then I wish to acknowledge. The past 6 years have been a battle that never ends. It seems so easy to wake up and put the depression on. Today I woke up and reached for the depression…..it was there waiting like an old friend. But then something different happened……I felt Gods presence in my life. I had been avoiding him for about 5 months, so he was not the voice I expected to hear today. It was as if he was telling me…….Patricia, I forgive you for those things you did 18 years ago. I have moved on and you should too. I felt as if he was saying,…..open your eyes and look what the Devil has put you through. What the Devil?
So, I looked out the window……yuck! Gloomy, looks like snow! But then at least I have vision to see the clouds.
So, I looked around the house….filthy! Looks like a dump! But then at least I have a house that needs cleaned.
So, I looked in the mirror….and a stranger is in the reflection! Wrinkled, battered, damaged, sick, weak! But then at least I’m still alive.
So, I looked into the school room….it’s still unpacked and looks like a bomb went off. But then at least my husband gave me this room.
So, I looked at how my kids are…..Then I got ticked off….that Devil has been taking so much from me and my family. I have let him….until today. Today, I will make an effort to stop him in his evil tracks!
Today I’m thankful!